This Post is Sort of a Downer... Sorry!

I'm not a big fan of saying goodbye to people and places and things, which has made this week spectacularly difficult. In short, I've been an emotional wreck. I've been going for coffee and dinner with friends and family, and today I left my condo empty and slid the keys under the door. My God that was hard. I've been having huge remorse over my decision, and I guess that's to be expected... I just hope it doesn't last much longer. It's so hard to say goodbye to my first home, even though it was only my home for 9 months... it was MINE. It was tangibly MINE!

I've decided that I am not moving ever again, but if I DO have to do it, then I'm going to host my own "wake" instead of drawing things out. It's too hard to say goodbye to everyone over a few weeks and end every day in tears. I would much rather have everyone in one room and I would sit on a chair and have each person come to me in turn to say goodbye. A short and sweet see-ya-later. I would nod, smile, probably cry. Say "I love you, I'll see you soon." But not goodbye. Not EVER goodbye. Goodbye is a hideous, horrible word on par with "never" and "unacceptable." Those words are too definite, and I'm not certain enough about anything to use them.

I leave for California on Saturday and I'm really not ready and am really not excited anymore; I'm just full of fear. The fear has encompassed me. I keep having nightmares that nobody at Yoga school likes me because I'm not BoHo-Hippie-Zen, but rather the girl in the Lululemon pants and mascara. I know I'm supposed to distance myself from the need of all things external, but yikes, I can't be Zen with blonde eyelashes!!! I sort of just wish it was already Sunday and I knew what I was in for... I will definitely post on Sunday and let you all know if this will be A Fun and Wonderful Month or A Month of Insecurity and Falling Down A Lot.

Hmm, that's it for now! Time to pack.

Love to you all,
Gillian

P.S. My dad has started a blog with his perspective of this INSANE MOVE TO NOVA SCOTIA... You can read his thoughts here.

New Brunswick

Hello!
Well I've been back from New Brunswick for a few days, and I don't feel like packing, so here are a few pictures from my trip:

The McKnight Family

The Adorable Miss Claire

Kirsten, Brad, and a strange Polar Bear outside of Dari-Delite!

Kirsten, a Snowman and me outside of Dari-Delite!

Brad, Kirsten and Me looking very cold on the beach at Saint Andrews.

I had a wonderful time, as you can see ;)

More pictures later!

Gillian

Going Live!

Okay, not sure yet about my mermaid picture, but it's there until I can draw another one.
My Adventures officially start on Sunday. Here's my "Schedule" for the next few months:
May 13th to 18th - Visit Kirsten, Brad and Claire in New Brunswick.
May 23rd - Josh, Susan and Caspian coming to Calgary
May 24th - My Last Chance to Dance party (Salsa on 17th)
May 25th - LAST DAY OF WORK!
May 26th - Move stuff to Mum and Dad's
May 31st - Say goodbye to my condo *sniffle*
June 2nd - Go to San Francisco
June 3rd - Start Yoga Instructor Certification Class
June 29th - Yoga School Ends
July 5th - Back to Calgary
July 10thish to 16thish - Live... somewhere in Calgary... not sure where
July 16thish - Road Trip to Nova Scotia with Mum, Dad, Belal, Winnie and Turtle (yikes!)
July 21st - NEW Harry Potter Book comes out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Must be SOMEWHERE in Canada with a book store!!!
That's as far as I've gotten ;) I'll post pictures from New Brunswick when I'm back :)
Love, Gillian